Are we entitled to our own happiness?

Perhaps when we dissect the word "happiness," we often find that our pleasure is quite subjective to each person. However, when some happiness finds its niche, it eventually becomes the "standard" of happiness, and people often use it as the basis for what they aspire to achieve.

Some indifferent people, like me in general, consider many small things enough to be happy. I'm not fussy; I'm also quite tired, and I let happiness sometimes find me on its own.

But peace of mind is something else. Happiness may come and go, like the bright morning sun, sometimes accompanied by clouds, then greeting us home until darkness falls. But peace of mind is something else entirely.

Making peace with how you ended up like this may sound silly and difficult. Yes, it is. But there is no path to peace except through an inner battle that you can destroy for yourself. There are no head-to-head battles that are unavoidable on that path, and in fact, there will be countless ceasefire violations every time you encounter it.

How many roads lead to Rome? Plenty. But at least we managed to get there, even if we stumbled along the wrong—or right?—road. And on my journey to Rome: Today, someone found me, listened to me, and understood you all at once. We shared laughter, hatred, and annoyance with you. Yes, we thought you were annoying. And thinking you were wrong and annoying made me happy—and her.

And sometimes, when I think of you, I always subconsciously say: "I hope you're happy." I don't know, these words are quite neutral, enough to give the impression that I can use them in any sense. When I'm annoyed, I say "I hope you're happy!" or when I'm feeling more relaxed, I say flatly, "I hope you're happy? I guess."

It turns out, my happiness can also come from negative things. Now I won't be white anymore; being gray is quite enjoyable. Being someone who will always find yourself in the stains you've tried to erase and laugh at yourself for the rest of your life is quite satisfying.

I think I deserve this news--and may claim more happiness in the future.